Love blinded.

I guess this would be the last time that i'm mentioning about it, i'm devastated.
You're such a great actor, you planned your script by yourself & act it on your own.
Drop the masquerade, cause i knew every single little thing that you didn't expected me to know.
From the start, you've already started the show. You started the lies, you started everything.
You know those dramas, movies or whatever you call that.
Those bad guys turned out the good ones in the end & the good ones turned out bad.
So i'm part of the good ones turning bad, turning evil, turning so heartless.
I once pinned down all my hopes on you, instead, all i get back is those little shattered pieces of my heart.
I knew who exactly is the girl, what you did, what you told her & who you met & stuffs.
I'm really not that stupid ain't i? I just don't get it why till end of the day you still chosen to lie.
So all along it was just my wishful thinking, hanging on to this relationship that you've already given up.
You told some that you're single, & then another moment you told others that it's just time out.
You told me that if i trusted you i wouldn't have questioned you.
K, so this is all i get after trusting you, after believing that what those people told me is false when it's true.
You made me.. Felt so foolish, so dumb so.. I don't know.

People commented you with those negatives names, i add on to it but at the same time i said positive things bout you.
I believed you did love me wholeheartedly,
the melody colouring book that you filled with colours,
the DIY crystal ball that you have a hard time trying to glue those figurines in it, the teddy bears crystal ball,
the baby piglet that you passed me through the window,
the melody you brought for me at some flower shop,
the melody you gave me during my birthday, the cards you made for me,
the melody you made using cardboards,
the days when you waited me after training/school,
the days when you woke up early in the morning to make breakfast for me and delievered it to my house and sent me to school after that,
the days we used bus tickets to fold paper hearts for each other,
the days when we got so emotional that the both of us cried in front of each other and used our hands to wiped off each other's tears,
the days when you gave me surprises by waiting for me at my house downstairs,
the days when you brought 100plus for me before my training,
the time when you flooded me with your texts when i was at Malaysia,
when you cooked porridge for me when i was sick,
the days when you accompanied me to the doctor when i wasn't feeing well,
and those sweet things you sent me, those sweet things that you whispered into my ear.

I still miss you, for it's going one year we're talking about.
But i'm gonna keep it inside my heart, this will break me and bring me down.
I have to do it, i believe the pain will gradually fade away.
For what i said to you, no one can predict the future.
Maybe someday dramatically we'll be back to sqaure one, back to the feelings we used to have.
I believe what's yours will always be yours, even if you've lost it, it will still come back to you if it's really meant to be.

For what you told others and whatever you told/ did with the girl, i'm gonna let it pass.
That night when i confronted you & those broke up texts & stuffs, i'm gonna remember it.
This is the last time i'm gonna tear for you when i'm typing this, let nature take its course.
Take good care of yourself, still willing to be your good friend. (:

"Promises are meant to be broken." I guess it's true for me now.